(yes I know, all my titles seem to be SONG oriented)
I LOVE MUSIC
This may seem a little incohesive...
but after a conversation with my mom
I thought of this post
for those of you who have been reading my posts
you know my parents are not doing well
health wise
it is sad
up days....down days
but on one of the DOWN DAY conversations with my mom
she was feeling
What is the Sense of it all
for what purpose did I work all my life
YOUR DAD worked since he was 8 years old (yes)
and what do we have to show for it
to take with us
Understand, my parents have GREAT FAITH
and they KNOW
it's not about WHAT we take with us
cause as far as "material things"
that would be nothing
not so much What we take with us
but what did we leave behind
so
mom and I talked about that
(photo from 50th wedding anniversary)
(photo from 2004)
(recently)
I won't go into the trials and struggles
of their situation now
WE ALL HAVE THEM...OR WILL HAVE THEM
but its about
TIME AFTER TIME
Recently I received a photo from my son's wife
of their little 4 year old
who has just started T-ball
the quality isn't that great
but it sure took me back in TIME
when all 4 of my sons played baseball
sports of all kinds
and yet
here it is again , repeating itself
a continuance of What WAS
a reminder
that life will go on and on and on
and it is important to dwell on the values, roots, foundations
of life
YES MOM
what you left behind was
a solid truth of what is
what will always be
and what once was
Children who do not know their past will never understand
their future
(Christopher Columbus)
It is a continuance
this is a photo of me and my grandparents
who I ADORE
and they too
took NOTHING with them
but what they left behind
was invaluable
the lessons, the love, the legacy
Remember the history of our people
Everytime someone forgets, someone else disappears
(Alice Hoffman, author)
so here I am
looking at myself, my life, my example
with my 5 children...one who left us TO SOON
What will I ultimately leave behind FOR THEM
(photo about 10 years old)
Will they forgive my faults, shortcomings, failures
and instead
seek out the GOOD I tried to instill in them
the truths
(ha ha, I always told my kids, don't listen to what I said, listen to what I meant)
by the same token
sadly
Don't always follow my footsteps
just Follow the truths I TOLD YOU ABOUT
Ok
I told you this would perhaps be a little
discombobulated
but stuff rolling around in my head here
What we LEAVE BEHIND
is of greatest value
My parents LOVED me despite the possible
many ways I disappointed them
they had to Re-Adjust THEIR dreams for me
to the dreams I had interpreted for myself
and accept that
and love me still
Same for my children
and grandchildren
OH HOW I WANT THEM TO REACH THE STARS
take over the galaxy
yet....they will course their own way
but the TRUTHS and VALUES
will have been cemented in them....
(no matter how they may try and fight that)
I am thankful for children who love me
and Parents who have led me and guided me
and GRANDPARENTS who before all that
layed out the same "lifes map"
thankful for a husband who loves me
despite my whinning and boob-a-loobing
BECAUSE
in the end
it's what we leave behind
SHINE LIKE A DOMAN
(which as been changed from Rhianna's song, Shine like a Diamond)
Doman, being the last name of my sons
and maiden name of my daughter
SHINE SHINE SHINE
and walk proud, confident, and assured
that what is now
was laid before you
Generations, and Generations ago