Tuesday, April 23, 2013

WAITIN' ON A WOMAN

Yes I know it has been awhile since I did a post
Not much to report
other then the same ol' same ol'

And THIS might be my shortest post Ever
(for me)

Waitin' on a Woman
That woman being ME

You see 
I have this adorable husband
who I lovingly call "Mr Gorgeous"

Many of you know our story
and some of you do not
But I AM NOT going to relate that here

Suffice it to say
he was my sweetheart when I was still in high school
and he was 4 years older

Forty years later
and a lot of living in between
we are back together

When He gets an idea in his head
he wants to do it NOW
especially when It is when he wants to go somewhere

"Hey....I need to go (hither and yon) and do
(such and what)
and if you want to come
I AM READY TO GO NOW"

WHAT !!!!!!!!!
Like ...Really I say  
NOW    

 He says.... as he puts on his coat
I'll wait for you in the truck

ok
BUT FIRST
I need to
change my cloths
put on a bra 
throw on some makeup

and because I do have some OCD issues


 First
I have to check the burners on the stove
SEVERAL times
make sure all the windows are closed 
and heaven forbid
I need to pick up a bit
cause if a burglar comes
I WANT MY HOUSE TO BE NEAT
so as not to be thought of as a slob
important

So...
MUCH LATER
while this Mr. Gorgeous of mine
is waiting, waiting, waiting in the truck
cause he is READY TO GO

I am afraid
He'll always be
waitin' on a woman

    
(disclaimer...I NEVER EVER look that glamorous) 



Monday, April 8, 2013

TIME AFTER TIME

(yes I know, all my titles seem to be SONG oriented)
I LOVE MUSIC


This may seem a little incohesive...
but after a conversation with my mom
I thought of this post

for those of you who have been reading my posts
you know my parents are not doing well
health wise
it is sad

up days....down days
but on one of the DOWN DAY conversations with my mom
she was feeling
What is the Sense of it all
for what purpose did I work all my life
YOUR DAD worked since he was 8 years old (yes)
and what do we have to show for it
to take with us

Understand, my parents have GREAT FAITH
and they KNOW
it's not about WHAT we take with us
cause as far as "material things"
that would be nothing

not so much What we take with us
but what did we leave behind
 so
mom and I talked about that

   (photo from 50th wedding anniversary)

 (photo from 2004)


(recently)

I won't go into the trials and struggles
of their situation now

WE ALL HAVE THEM...OR WILL HAVE THEM

but its about
TIME AFTER TIME

Recently I received a photo from my son's wife
of their little 4 year old
who has just started T-ball

   the quality isn't that great
but it sure took me back in TIME

when all 4 of my sons played baseball
sports of all kinds
and yet
here it is again , repeating itself
a continuance of What WAS
a reminder
that life will go on and on and on
and it is important to dwell on the values, roots, foundations
of life

YES MOM

what you left behind was
a solid truth of what is
what will always be
and what once was

Children who do not know their past will never understand 
their future
(Christopher Columbus)        


It is a continuance

 
this is a photo of me and my grandparents
who I ADORE

and they too
took NOTHING with them

but what they left behind
was invaluable

the lessons, the love, the legacy

Remember the history of our people
Everytime someone forgets, someone else disappears
(Alice Hoffman, author) 

so here I am
looking at myself, my life, my example

 with my 5 children...one who left us TO SOON
What will I ultimately leave behind FOR THEM
(photo about 10 years old) 

Will they forgive my faults, shortcomings, failures
and instead
seek out the GOOD I tried to instill in them
the truths
(ha ha, I always told my kids, don't listen to what I said, listen to what I meant)  
by the same token
sadly
Don't always follow my footsteps
just Follow the truths I TOLD YOU ABOUT

Ok
I told you this would perhaps be a little
discombobulated
but stuff rolling around in my head here

What we LEAVE BEHIND
is of greatest value
My parents LOVED me despite the possible
many ways I disappointed them 
they had to Re-Adjust THEIR dreams for me
to the dreams I had interpreted for myself
and accept that
and love me still

Same for my children
and grandchildren
OH HOW I WANT THEM TO REACH THE STARS
take over the galaxy
yet....they will course their own way

but the TRUTHS and VALUES
will have been cemented in them....
(no matter how they may try and fight that)


I am thankful for children who love me
and Parents who have led me and guided me
and GRANDPARENTS who before all that
layed out the same "lifes map"

thankful for a husband who loves me
despite my whinning and  boob-a-loobing 

 BECAUSE
in the end
it's what we leave behind

SHINE LIKE A DOMAN 
(which as been changed from Rhianna's song, Shine like a Diamond)
Doman, being the last name of my sons 
and maiden name of my daughter   

SHINE SHINE SHINE

and walk proud, confident, and assured
that what is now
was laid before you
Generations, and Generations ago