TIME AFTER TIME

(yes I know, all my titles seem to be SONG oriented)

I LOVE MUSIC

This may seem a little incohesive...

but after a conversation with my mom

I thought of this post

for those of you who have been reading my posts

you know my parents are not doing well

health wise

it is sad

up days....down days

but on one of the DOWN DAY conversations with my mom

she was feeling

What is the Sense of it all

for what purpose did I work all my life

YOUR DAD worked since he was 8 years old (yes)

and what do we have to show for it

to take with us

Understand, my parents have GREAT FAITH

and they KNOW

it's not about WHAT we take with us

cause as far as "material things"

that would be nothing

not so much What we take with us

but what did we leave behind

 so

mom and I talked about that

   (photo from 50th wedding anniversary)

 (photo from 2004)

(recently)

I won't go into the trials and struggles

of their situation now

WE ALL HAVE THEM...OR WILL HAVE THEM

but its about

TIME AFTER TIME

Recently I received a photo from my son's wife

of their little 4 year old

who has just started T-ball

   the quality isn't that great

but it sure took me back in TIME

when all 4 of my sons played baseball

sports of all kinds

and yet

here it is again , repeating itself

a continuance of What WAS

a reminder

that life will go on and on and on

and it is important to dwell on the values, roots, foundations

of life

YES MOM

what you left behind was

a solid truth of what is

what will always be

and what once was

Children who do not know their past will never understand 

their future

(Christopher Columbus)        

It is a continuance

 

this is a photo of me and my grandparents

who I ADORE

and they too

took NOTHING with them

but what they left behind

was invaluable

the lessons, the love, the legacy

Remember the history of our people

Everytime someone forgets, someone else disappears

(Alice Hoffman, author) 

so here I am

looking at myself, my life, my example

 with my 5 children...one who left us TO SOON

What will I ultimately leave behind FOR THEM

(photo about 10 years old) 

Will they forgive my faults, shortcomings, failures

and instead

seek out the GOOD I tried to instill in them

the truths

(ha ha, I always told my kids, don't listen to what I said, listen to what I meant)  

by the same token

sadly

Don't always follow my footsteps

just Follow the truths I TOLD YOU ABOUT

Ok

I told you this would perhaps be a little

discombobulated

but stuff rolling around in my head here

What we LEAVE BEHIND

is of greatest value

My parents LOVED me despite the possible

many ways I disappointed them 

they had to Re-Adjust THEIR dreams for me

to the dreams I had interpreted for myself

and accept that

and love me still

Same for my children

and grandchildren

OH HOW I WANT THEM TO REACH THE STARS

take over the galaxy

yet....they will course their own way

but the TRUTHS and VALUES

will have been cemented in them....

(no matter how they may try and fight that)

I am thankful for children who love me

and Parents who have led me and guided me

and GRANDPARENTS who before all that

layed out the same "lifes map"

thankful for a husband who loves me

despite my whinning and  boob-a-loobing 

 BECAUSE

in the end

it's what we leave behind

SHINE LIKE A DOMAN 

(which as been changed from Rhianna's song, Shine like a Diamond)

Doman, being the last name of my sons 

and maiden name of my daughter   

SHINE SHINE SHINE

and walk proud, confident, and assured

that what is now

was laid before you

Generations, and Generations ago